Archive for the ‘Pre-Deployment’ Category

21:19 Clyde left to report back to Ft. Bragg this morning. We spent three-and-a-half days together, days that, I’m afraid, I didn’t take full advantage of. I was so emotional in so many ways that I started quite a few moments of drama that I know both of us could have done without. I wish […]

18:23 Clyde is finally home on his 96. He got in around 4 o’clock this morning. It’s no small feat to turn a few days into enough to carry myself through the upcoming months, but I’ll figure it out. ~Betty

13:17 A full thirty days have passed since I saw Clyde last. Over those thirty days, I spent an inordinate amount of time moping. I’m getting my grip back, though, and finding my stride. So, of course, something has changed. Clyde has been granted a four-day pass for next month. He will be spending it […]



03:30 It’s one of those nights that are hard to get through, I guess. I’m not sure what set it off, if anything. I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I won’t see Clyde again for so long. It’s stupid, really; I got along without him in my life just fine for almost twenty-six […]

01:55 I got to spend almost a full hour on the phone with Clyde this afternoon. It’s been a while since we were able to talk that long. He’s doing amazingly well in training, and he’s enjoying himself a bit more. Thank God, because, when he gets bored, he gets rather bitchy. I’m doing better. […]

Almost Fight


15:09 Clyde and I just came to the brink of our first fight… via text messages. CLYDE: A Lt. Col. just told me I was cute. I am scared. I love you babe BETTY: HE should be scared. I’ll fuck up his existence in a life-long kinda way. >:-) You are cute though, so I’ll […]

00:06 “I know what you’ve done, but I’m not going to beat you over the head with it every chance I get”, he says to me, tonight. I say nothing. …………………………………………………………………………………………………… “Are you there?” he says. I say, “Partly. The rest of me is thinking about how, someday, I’ll tell you how much what you […]

The Mission


Since last night, I’ve been replaying a part of my conversation with Clyde over and over again in my head. We were discussing my respect for the fact that his mission is more important than I am. Frankly, until he said something, I didn’t consider it all that remarkable. How could I claim to love […]

23:18 Clyde and I just hung up from our first conversation since he reported back to duty. We spoke several times during his bus ride, and again, briefly, when he first got back on base, but this was the first time he’d called since he got back into uniform. It was also the first conversation […]