Archive for the ‘Deployment’ Category

The deployment is almost over. Colin is back in the United States, almost three weeks early. I’ve flown back up to Pennsylvania to pick him up. It’s over. He’s almost home.


A Fresh Start


1226 It’s been quite a while since I wrote here. Changes in my life have kept me from keeping up with this, a sad, but true, consequence of the changes I have made. At the end of R&R, a situation came up, and I relocated to Florida’s Gulf Coast, following in the footsteps of my […]

A Single Page


They had given him back to her, but not to keep.

R&R: Part I


No one should have to be satisfied with just two weeks beside the person that they love.

I’m just a girl, excited to see her Soldier again.

18:47 I have been fighting a lot of battles over the past three months. It’s been seven months since my divorce, and I’m still trying to deal with the debt I was left with, as well as the additional debt that accumulated while I was stuck on part-time at work. I do absolutely nothing besides […]



Today marks the first Military Spouse Appreciation Day. While it’s certainly wonderful that there is finally some recognition for those who wait back home, it’s sad that they’ve confined it to those who are married. What about the girlfriends and boyfriends who wait at home with no real expectations of commitment, who do not have […]

Grains of Sand


We have leave dates! This was very unexpected. Because Clyde’s deployment was for less then twelve months, we were not expecting that he would get leave. It’s a welcome surprise.

Little Moments


Things have been hectic lately, and I’ve been terribly busy managing a hundred things. I’m willing to bet that fact is the reason that I was shocked today when I realized that almost two months of the deployment have gone by. Although I still faithfully cross the days off of my calendar, and my countdown […]

And A Grrrr!


10:53 The Internet is out on Cylde’s FOB. After weeks of conversations on AIM that lasted for hours, I had gotten used to getting to talk with him every day. Now, I’m realizing just how critical that connection has been for getting myself through all of this. Without the phones, I wouldn’t be hearing from […]

20:16 I’ve never cared to play “Who Has It Worse?” with anyone. When it comes to Clyde, I don’t even try. Despite the fact that we are two halves of the same situation, the experiences and perceptions we have are highly disparate. Neither one of us has it any better than the other, no matter […]

21:36 I’ve never changed my mind so many times about one single thing, as much as I have changed my mind about this damn deployment. Some days, I’m fine. I mean, I miss Clyde, but I’m not tearing up during Hallmark commercials or anything. I look at the countdown I keep running on my computer […]

Moving Through


17:15 Clyde is now in Afghanistan. After almost two weeks of travel, he is finally at his theater. We’ve been able to maintain fairly regular contact, albeit for fifteen minutes at a time, with a two- to three-second delay, but at least we’re still in touch. That may change, now that he’s where he’s supposed […]

21:19 Clyde left to report back to Ft. Bragg this morning. We spent three-and-a-half days together, days that, I’m afraid, I didn’t take full advantage of. I was so emotional in so many ways that I started quite a few moments of drama that I know both of us could have done without. I wish […]

The Mission


Since last night, I’ve been replaying a part of my conversation with Clyde over and over again in my head. We were discussing my respect for the fact that his mission is more important than I am. Frankly, until he said something, I didn’t consider it all that remarkable. How could I claim to love […]