Archive for January, 2008

Lonely

26Jan08

03:30 It’s one of those nights that are hard to get through, I guess. I’m not sure what set it off, if anything. I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I won’t see Clyde again for so long. It’s stupid, really; I got along without him in my life just fine for almost twenty-six […]


01:55 I got to spend almost a full hour on the phone with Clyde this afternoon. It’s been a while since we were able to talk that long. He’s doing amazingly well in training, and he’s enjoying himself a bit more. Thank God, because, when he gets bored, he gets rather bitchy. I’m doing better. […]


Almost Fight

11Jan08

15:09 Clyde and I just came to the brink of our first fight… via text messages. CLYDE: A Lt. Col. just told me I was cute. I am scared. I love you babe BETTY: HE should be scared. I’ll fuck up his existence in a life-long kinda way. >:-) You are cute though, so I’ll […]


00:06 “I know what you’ve done, but I’m not going to beat you over the head with it every chance I get”, he says to me, tonight. I say nothing. …………………………………………………………………………………………………… “Are you there?” he says. I say, “Partly. The rest of me is thinking about how, someday, I’ll tell you how much what you […]


The Mission

05Jan08

Since last night, I’ve been replaying a part of my conversation with Clyde over and over again in my head. We were discussing my respect for the fact that his mission is more important than I am. Frankly, until he said something, I didn’t consider it all that remarkable. How could I claim to love […]


23:18 Clyde and I just hung up from our first conversation since he reported back to duty. We spoke several times during his bus ride, and again, briefly, when he first got back on base, but this was the first time he’d called since he got back into uniform. It was also the first conversation […]